mature enough to appreciate...

‘Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace

Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high

No river too wide

Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side

Storm clouds may gather,

And stars may collide

But I love you

Until the end of time’

Oh! Assalamualaikum guys!

Listening to ‘Come What May’ from Moulin Rouge OST has urged me to write this post. I know this song was actually about the bond between lovers but who cares right? LOVE is not only given to ‘them’, we also give LOVE to our dearest family members and besties!  

What else do we need in our lives besides having family and friends in our circle of social life? Come what may, as long as they are with us, we'll be fine insyaAllah! I can say that they play an important role in supporting us, mentally and emotionally. Erk those two, aren’t they the same? Okay, just ignore it.


As we’re getting older, opss perhaps ‘more mature’ would suit more in this situation. Resuming what I was going to blab, as we’re getting more mature (it does sound right,,), every single thing that we do and we are about to do sometimes will lead us to stress. And for those who still don’t have their own way to cope with stress, they prone to be someone who is annoying and full of hatred. Well, to be honest, I’m actually one of those people who happen to have that kind of personality. Yes, up until now. -_- That is why both family and friends play a very important role in my life, EMOTIONALLY.

I don’t know what was I thinking back then, but I did not have any close relationship with my family members. Can’t believe it, right? But it’s the truth. Not even with my mother. I kept on thinking why my family was not like other people’s family; others seem happy and close. What could have gone missing? I never got the answer until one day, something happened. And it did strike me.  If there was something missing, it’s the warmth and sense of belonging was never there in the first place. Well, those were the reasons; at least they were to me!

It’s not easy to break the bond between us at first, and yes, it was kind of awkward for me to have wanting to be close with my own family. Duh! Lame, I know. But I don’t want to have a family without having any connection with them anymore. After changing my personality, a bit I assume, for good, I guess everything turned out to be better than what I expected it to be. Mama and I are like best friends. But we used to be like strangers, we seldom talked to each other, whenever I had problems at school; either with my studies or my relationships with teachers or friends, I never wanted her to know. I made sure that I kept my distance from her, which was an aweful thing to do to your own mom.   

As for now, I make sure that she knows EVERY SINGLE THING that happen in my life, literally. Haha! It’s like a compensation for not being able to do that earlier. Even with my siblings, I make sure that we will have something to say to each other when I go back home. And sports will always be our favourite topic to talk about when I am with my dad. Golf, tennis, snooker, and even wrestling that I dislike the most (apart from badminton, I don’t even watch the match and I hate it because the shuttle moves so fast in a match, LOL, so we never talk about it, hehe) can be one of the sports that we’ll definitely talk about. Therefore, I was, no, I AM thankful for ‘that’ to happen and it really changes my view on how I value my family. ALHAMDULILLAH. Never REGRET is soooo true to me.

To begin with, I am truly blessed that I have friends that always support me, as I’ve said before, emotionally. Friends are easy to make if you were kind enough to smile and introduce yourself first to strangers. However, ‘smile’ and ‘being friendly’ are not the only things that maintain your relationships with your BEST friends. It might take days, months and even years to create a bond with them until they are willing to give you ‘that’. ‘THAT’ happens to be TRUST. Oh yes! It takes times to gain trust and it only takes second to break it and it will take FOREVER to mend it back. Ever heard of this quote? ;) It’s true though.

And I happen to have few of them whom I appreciate so much. They have been my emotional supporters, well of course apart from my mom. Hehe. I would say four of them are the best and I don’t have any plan to add more people in the list AND I am pretty sure that other people would not want to be in the list at all after they get to know the REAL me. Some of them even left me for their own good because they cannot handle the REAL me. Yeah, sadly, it happened before.

So who are these four people? Two of them are my besties from school (tomato and potato, LOL, I know the names funny but who cares, it was created when we were immature, haha!) and another two are my colleagues from college (you know who you are, GEDIKS ;P). I don’t want to talk in details who they are; it’s enough to know there are 4 people who will be patting on my back and giving me words of encouragement if I were about to fall. Why four? Other people only have one or two best friends only. Were they considered you as their best friends too? To be honest, I don’t even know about it myself. I just don’t want to be greedy in getting the title because we cannot force others to accept us the way we accepted them. I am contented enough with the thoughts that I myself have them to support me. And best friends are not only about sharing the same passion or hobbies or ambitions or personality, we also value the differences that we have and tolerate them. Yes, we do complain, sometimes, but that will not affect our relationships. I, somehow, could not thank you guys enough! 

My relationships with them were not started in a good way especially with tomato and potato. We were not in a good term, we fight a lot like in real fight, and we can even say we DETEST each other to the max. Amazingly, it changes with time. Allah yang jaga hati kita, Dia juga lah yang berkuasa mengubah. Yes, up until now, they have been my greatest counsellors in anything and everything. Sarcasm is what makes us close even more. Me, being sarcastic with other people? Are you kidding me? Nah! It’s the truth, I’m not bluffing! ;)

With GEDIKS, we were not close at all at first. Not that we hate each other, it was just that we never have the chance to be close though one of them were my neighbour when we was in Pre-Medical time. Again, time changes everything and now we are like three bodies with a mind. Haha! Yeah, great minds think alike, don’t you think? *winkwink* Rolling-on-the-floor-laughing , having-a-deep-and-emotional-conversation-before-sleep-and-end-up-not-sleeping, being-childish are definitely our routine whenever we meet each other. 

In conclusion, I’ve come to appreciate them so much that I’ll break if I lose any of them. They are, somehow, my sources of strength. Losing them makes me weak. I thank you Allah for bringing them into my life. Alhamdulillah.

May Allah bless~